I wanted this post to hit the blog when I turn 25yrs on 23rd January, but I was not able to finish putting all my thoughts & my feelings. 2011 was overwhelmingly was a great year for me and I was in Mumbai when I celebrated my 24th Birthday. I thought long & hard to post about it, but some how it never materialized in to words. When I started my journey 3yrs in Bangalore I know it is going to be different than the life I lived in Hyderabad, but the life here is so vibrant & colorful it made my challenges look small.
I some where read that if you are growing old there is another way to consider it, the young in you am dying. I don’t know if I am growing old or the young in me is dying, but I know that there are some things which never changes, I meant learning’s. Only learning’s through out my life has kept me alive in this competitive world. I worked hard each minute to match my speed with this competitive world & I applied each learning which I took from my life.
I knew that my life journey is not going to be neither easy nor tough; it is going to be hard because with out effort, dedication, patience & willingness to learn through every phase I cannot achieve what I wanted. I need to work harder than average person to realize my dreams. I dream big because I got only one chance to live & I prefer to live it to the fullest by trying to do everything possible on the earth. I wanted to travel a lot, eat great food, tell & write stories & learn a lot about everything & anything. I know that I might sound mad and I am one, but there is this madness which drives me every day & brings a lot of motivation, energy and a new life each minute when ever I think of my dreams.
It is the possibility of a dream come true which makes life interesting & every minute when I chase my dreams I feel like a fighter who is on the battle field. Everyone think I am very positive & very optimistic, but that is not true always, I too panic & get depressed while I fight the challenges of my visual impairment. It is easy to accept that I will have a low vision and that vision might deteriorate gradually but that toughest challenge is while you make the next transition of slowly moving from the world of low vision into total darkness. I am not afraid of the dark but feared that I will not be able to travel as I dreamed. I need to learn a new way of seeing things that is through feeling & experiencing them.
On this birthday I realized that I have a job I like, a family who loves me a lot & friends who care for me more than I knew. I am thankful for what ever I have in my life & wanted to move a head with a new energy, motivation & optimistic thoughts that every thing will fall in place. It is a journey I chose to pursue & there is no looking back when the first step was taken & I just pray to all the forces of nature to help me.
