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Good Bye to Bangalore & a warm Hello to Hyderabad

Written By: raghava - May• 19•13

After almost 6yrs of my journey in Bangalore now I am returning home, it’s a strange feeling when one part of your mind say’s it’s time to move and another part of mind say’s no no wait I got more to show…it’s a tough decision like many other’s in my life and I think like always I made the best choice. It was an internal struggle with in my self and I am thankful that every thing is turning up well.

I am leaving Bangalore for a lot of reasons, it has been 6yrs that I left home and I learned a lot during my stay in Bangalore, the city and people here taught me a lot, in fact I took a rebirth by creating the identity Raghava. I came here to make a career and live a independent life because that was the most worrying part, finding a job was not a easy task, after attending more than 42 interviews I finally got one which I liked and later I moved to a new role which I love. Living alone and managing my daily routine was not an easy task, I struggled, screamed, cried and cursed on the amount of hard work that I needed to put to get things done. Some times the hardwork is paid off in some sort of reward and sometimes it doesn’t, I am becoming blind that is not a easy transformation to go through….when ever my eye sight dimmed little I need to learn and relearn each aspect of my life, I don’t like it but to move forward I never gave up, yes it took time for me to cope with all these things never the less I came back with more will power and strength to fight.

This time I made a choice to move back to Hyderabad because I felt I need some rest from all this mental stress and need some space to think on my future plans’ am moving for my family and to get some ayurvedic treatment done at Hyderabad so as to sustain the little eye sight I got in my left eye. In Hyderabad I will have easy life and I am sure I will have more time to do other things that I wanted to do always…I don’t have to make plans to fetch break fast, lunch, dinner or make necessary arrangements for traveling, looking after the house hold needs etc…I will be in the protection of my mother, father, sister and Balto my dog, I miss them a lot and I was never able to express to them. It’s time to be with family and understand them because they are the one who suffer when something happens to me here…all their life is here and they constantly keep thinking about me all the time.

Bangalore has blessed me with so many friends who were there when I wanted them, who tried to fulfill my desires, dreams, who took care of me during the events who ran with me during my marathon trainings, who helped me to reach my destinations, who helped me trek etc…I love each one of you and will never forget any one of you…It is here where I tasted success, triumph over my disability and sense of pride with each achievement , every word of motivation and every bit of learning that I got from people and the city helped me go places where I never dreamt of. it is here I saw people dream and work hard towards their dreams which helped me to dream big and make that 101 bucket list…I hope each one of you will stay with me during my journey and will be there beside me when I wanted…

I am leaving Bangalore for few months as of now but need to return constantly to work with my team here. so I will be visiting Bangalore frequently and we always can catch up for a coffee or a snack…in this world of technology often people say we don’t miss each other and can keep in touch through phone calls, emails or facebook but remember there is always that personal touch we miss, that makes all the difference..

My First 10k Run For This Season

Written By: raghava - May• 18•13

Today did my first 10k for this season…first 1k I ran with Chandra, as she is new to running with me we were talking and did a slow pace run…Anupama joined us later and she took it off from there we ran together earlier many times and decided to keep a study pace, we ran together for 3km when shiv, paroma and jaya passed us. I kept in pace with shiv and decided to do a little run with him as I haven’t ran with him before, we ran little faster than before and I was tired by end of my 7th kilo meter…Shiva encouraged me a lot during the run and guided me well , think I slowed him down but we enjoyed running together…Anupama joined us later and I thought to finish the run by doing only 8k so me and Anu sprinted to the starting point…Anu finished her 10k and I did 8k, but shiv came to me and said come on Raghava I will accompany you we will finish your run…let’s run at easy pace and enjoy the feeling. I got a new feeling and a motivation to finish the next 2k…finally we did it…just loved the feeling end of it and I must really thank Shiv for making me do that last stretch…

Ran by catching the fingers and listening to the study sound of my co runner shoes and their vocal guidance. We did not use the regular shampoo bottle method today and for some awesome reason I felt safe and comfortable running by leaving fingers. Looking forward to do my next 10k on June 2nd at Ananda Yana marathon.

To make a difference in my life

Written By: raghava - May• 16•13

When I wanted to make a difference in my life, I tried finding solutions for my problems, reading widely that is available on internet, spoke to people who are under going the same as me etc…….I learned how to move on, how to be practical, how to transform my emotion into a powerful action and each time when I discovered something new I shared it , I listen, I debate etc..

During all this journey of life I look forward to make a difference in my own life and for some reason it impacted many more and when they say you are a source of inspiration to many it gave me a new hope, new strength, new motivation to fight. So keep people closer, listen to the world and look for those who can drive you because the true power of making impossible things happen is to keep the fire alive no matter what happens.

A Feel of Joy and A Feel of Achievement

Written By: raghava - May• 12•13

A feel of joy feel of achievement and pride
After I came back from my run today I slept for few hours and when I woke up I realized there is a kind of stinking smell in the house…I know what’s the source of it and went to kitchen to find that my sink is filled with unwashed dishes. There is a task to be done and I looked at my computer table which is full of dust and all my clothes are on one chair like a huge pile of garbage…for some reason I did not get a nice feeling and decided to get things into order. I started with washing the dishes one by one, drying and placing them carefully in their respective places, then I moved on to the task of dusting the computer table. My maid doesn’t touch this as she is scared that she might miss place any of my papers or move any of my belongings from their place. I need to find the dusting cloth and then started the procedure of cleaning the table carefully by touching each and every part of the table and monitor. Once I was satisfied with this I went back to my room and looked at all the clothes I got there on chair, I started segregating them accordingly and started folding them.

To complete these tasks it took me nearly 4hrs and all this while I was playing music to keep my energy levels high and motivated. It’s a dull work because you need to feel things with your fingers one by one and then act accordingly…it took time but when I am done with it, a strange feeling crept into me, feel of joy,, the feel of achievement and pride…

Now my goal is to improve the timing part, I know it’s going to take some time and practice.

Vision Update the blinded right eye

Written By: raghava - Apr• 29•13

Some times life is a bitchy thing, when you don’t want something not to happen or when you least expect, out of the blue it hits hard on your face. From last few day’s the only thing on my mind is How to deal with this now…I got big plans and started working on my ideas and now this puts a halt to my wheels, my energy, my enthusiasm, my fire and everything that I am made off…My right eye got blinded few weeks back , I did not expect this to happen so quickly or at this moment of life….it may sound silly but the truth of knowing that I might be completely blind one day did not help to face the situation…Think accepting is a journey it self and I once again failed to accept or see the reality.

I quickly know what needs to be done; I left Bangalore and went to stay with my parents thinking it might help. Meeting friends and being with family helped to a certain extent but the frustration and loneliness in my mind pushed me to the edge that resulted in a angry out burst on my Mum, dad and sis…but what ever happened it helped me to deal with this sudden loss of my eye sight to a extent and move forward. In 2011 when I lost my eye sight to an extent I stayed back in Bangalore and that drove me into depression, but now staying in Hyderabad helped me to an extent. My life has become much tougher than what it was before and I do my daily routine by taking little more time than usual. I don’t know how to deal with this change because now I need to reengineer and relearn each aspect of my life again and sure it is going to take some time.

What I missed in Hyderabad was my running friends, colleagues and friends in Bangalore…every day I received at least a email, message on FB or a ping asking when I will come back and how are you doing…I thank each one of you for your love and care for me…I thank my mum, dad and sis who said constantly again and again that they are there for me….am sure with out their support I might not exist and a big warm love goes to Santhosh runner’s high, Dilshad, Anupama Harish, Asha Ashok, Chandra, Rashmy, Subhashini and all my running friends…Zareen and Aparna I always love your company and support you provide.

Life got me started on a new journey and I got new challenges to face. I wish to receive the same kind of support from each one of you to win over this world and realize my dreams.

Railonama Stories of Train Journey’s

Written By: raghava - Apr• 18•13

 

 

Few weeks back my friend @anupamash emailed and told me about the latest project she is working on. Anupama is a dear friend and run’s Pick a Fight- www.pickafight.in which is a platform that helps people connect and fight for a common cause that can help achieve greater good. We met during yahoo hack day and I got in touch with Anupama and Sumit so as to be part of pick a fight and some how things did not workout because I became busy in other activities and fights of my own.

 

Anupama’s new project is a very interesting one as she is trying to crowd source stories of train journey’s and get them published into a book. Here is the original email sent by Anu to me,

 

If you have ever traveled in the Indian trains and have a story you can’t forget, we’d love to read it! We are compiling a series of short stories that are emotionally engaging, inspiring, and unique. We plan to publish the stories in a commemorative book in 2013.

 

To submit your stories and know more please visit: http://Railonama.com

Please forward to those who would like to share and publish their unforgettable travel stories as well.

Thanks!
Railonama

 

P.S: Those, whose stories get published, will get a printed copy of the book. The book will be published in both US and India and the proceeds from the royalties will go back to India to the victims of train accidents and such.

 

 

 

 

Just by sharing a real experience of our train journey we can touch at least one life and all it takes to do this is to write your experience and share it on Railonama. You can directly get in touch with Anupama at

 

www.twitter.com/anupamash

www.twitter.com/rrailonama

www.facebook.com/railonama

 

Please share about this initiative and encourage people to share their train journey experiences on railonama and now for me share this on your social properties. I personally have seen Anu and Sumit building pick a fight and work done by them; I have complete faith in them.

I Am The Force

Written By: raghava - Apr• 08•13

Some times determination is just not enough….When we want to put our thoughts into action we must always remember and say each minute to ourselves that we are the force…we are the one who start and who quit then why wait for things to fall in place…

I never waited for the right time to come and I never shut the doors for any opportunity….some say I am a opportunist, some say I am inspiration and some say I failed to avail a opportunity…so wake up from that dreamy sleep of yours there are real dreams to chase and if you want to get lost in fantasy then do at least that innovatively because there is always fun in doing things that are not done before.

I woke up one day from my dream and decided to run a marathon, make that 101 list, read books, teach students etc…every thing I did was possible because I said to my self 12yrs ago that I want to be a force and gave that personality a name “Raghava” I cared, groomed and taught this personality every thing which I was lacking 12yrs back….it took enormous amount of energy, time, effort and pain to become competitive with this so called normal world nothing is perfect and…I won, failed, saw success and failure, experienced pain and gain but nothing mattered by the end of the day…when I go to bed each day I still believe I am the best and I am the force behind Raghava..

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