It has been a few years since I lost my temper. Yesterday, however, due to a combination of things, my day was disrupted, and one thing led to another—I lost my temper at the dialysis unit. Initially, I was asked to come in at 3 PM for dialysis. When I reached there at 3:20 PM, one of the staff members told me I would need to wait another hour. That’s when I started to lose it.
Since morning, I had been dealing with work-related stress, lack of proper sleep, and the oppressive heat—all of which had already worn down my patience. Being told I had to wait another hour pushed me over the edge. In a moment of anger, I punched my leg multiple times. I didn’t want to direct my anger at the staff or anyone managing the dialysis unit.
The dialysis finally started at 4 PM, but I kept thinking about the incident. It had been a long time since I felt so out of control, and I was embarrassed because several people at the unit witnessed it. I believe that being mindful and practicing meditation is the way forward to help prevent incidents like this in the future.
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