Handling The Pain

Note: This problem is partly sorted. Last two Monday’s been good & post dialysis there were no complications.

So I spent yesterday from 3 PM TO Today 3AM in a lot of pain & suffering… post dialysis this is what happens on each Monday & I am trying to figure out what is the cause… sometimes there is no reason for things to take place & may be I just need to suffer . The headache becomes unbearable & it is followed by vomiting… the problem is you cannot eat, you cannot drink even water, and you cannot sit or sleep… I use to have the episodes of migraine but this is different from what I experienced.

Here are the two things I try to do when these episodes take place after my dialysis,

I tell myself that I will be fine & think of positive things.
I ask my mother or father to sit with me for an hour or two. It really helps, even though we don’t speak their presence calms me.

Most of the time when these episodes take place I need to suffer through it. There is no other option & now that these episodes have stopped for last two Monday’s I think I am going to be much better. We finally figured out that it is my medication in the morning that is causing this complication & we changed it to night. While my doctors were trying to figure out my dad & I experimented with various things & finally figured out the cause & changed the schedule of my medication.

Pain is bad in many ways & when it is physical I know I cannot handle it after a while… something mental can be always dealt if you have a strong willpower but handling physical pain & suffering through it for last 10months I have huge respect for those who go through it daily. I know few friends & family who got invisible illnesses where they go through physical pain each day & as my running buddy use to say it’s all in the mind…