Desire to Live

I always plan things ahead of schedule & use to work hard to make things happen…..I planned what I want to achieve & was working towards my goals…the kidney disease changed all that, my goals & dreams don’t matter anymore…there is only one agenda I need to survive this….I handled the mental stress well…with a lot of family & friends support I am being very positive about how things turned & I am trying to engage myself each day. I tell myself that today will be a better than yesterday & move forward…

While I was going through all this I realized that my desire to live a full filling life was going strong each day…I never thought of death much or an illness that needs constant monitoring but when I am challenged with it kind of changed my perspective towards living…As Steve Jobs said “even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die”…while dialysis is keeping me alive & giving me a certain freedom my desire to get out of it is more…

I heard that a lot of them doesn’t come out of the phase where they lose hope & desire to live because they were put on dialysis….I believe that dialysis is not too bad you just need patience & a lot of tolerance to do it 3times a week…initially I struggled with it but after a month I kind of settled into routine…. I started taking it one step at a time & started living in the moment…

I believe life is beautiful & it just need an open mind to work on our challenges…..I want to live a quality healthy life & all those plans & dreams got changed now…I don’t know what universe has planned for me, I hope that I will do some great things in future…The kidney disease changed my perspective towards living & I want to live long…